The Root

Things could be better right now. A lot better, actually. Rent's due tomorrow, which is fine, but after that I'm flat broke until Friday. I had to max out my credit card to get gas last week, and I'm going to be paying a hefty over-the-limit fee anyway, so I went ahead and filled up so I wouldn't have to worry about it for a little while. That just upped my next credit card payment by about $20. Plus Time Warner is apparently expecting two months payments by July 23rd, which is fine because I was worried about over drafting my bank account to have it paid by this Wednesday.. but it's more money. My husband has next to nothing in his account because he had to buy a new bike chain, and that really put us in a crunch. We haven't gotten our rebate check yet because my mom's accountant filed my SSN with her extension, so the IRS didn't accept my tax filing back in April. I now have to go up to H&R Block this Thursday morning to pick up my paperwork so I can mail it to the IRS so they can fix it.

On top of all that, I feel like my husband is giving me no help with the house and the new kitten. I mean, I know he's contributing a little, but not as much as he needs to, and not near as much as I am. I was almost late to work this afternoon because I had to spend an hour cleaning the kitchen before I could get in the shower to get ready for work. Plus I had to sit on the phone with the IRS and H&R Block to get it all sorted out. Plus the damn kitten won't stop biting me no matter what I do to make him behave, so I finally locked him under a laundry basket. It didn't stop the problem, but it gave me time to get my hair and makeup done. It's my husband's cat, I got it for him, but I feel like I'm primarily taking care of it. I feed it and clean up the food and water bowl and clean out the litter box everyday. I keep the floors and the kitchen and bathroom clean and organized. Hell, I even make my husband lunch for work the next day, but he won't get up and make me toast or something for breakfast while I get ready for work unless I force him? It's bullshit. I'm so tired. No, I don't work the 12-hour-days that he does, but he gets home before I do, and he feeds himself and then sits around watching TV or playing on the computer. I was aggravated this afternoon on my way to work I told him not to talk to me if he wasn't going to be nice to me and drop his attitude. I haven't heard from him yet. But then again, his way of solving things is to act like nothing ever happened and then get mad at me when I'm still upset. I don't have the time or energy for that.

Actually, I don't have the time or energy for anything right now. Luckily my manager cares about me and doesn't want me to starve (seeing as I didn't have anything to pack for my lunch) so she's ordering me food. I love my job, and it pays great, I just wish it paid more.. I shouldn't complain, because there are people who make less than me, but it kills me when the people who make more than me put themselves in the position to need more money when they're just blowing the money they have on frivolous shit that's turned into debt. When you make more money, you're not supposed to spend more, you're supposed to stay where you are and be happy with what you have and save the extra. My husband and I have that plan set up, it;s just going to be a couple of weeks before we start seeing money int he savings account; the first month of moving in is rough on finances, and right now we're spending the money we're making on bills.

I just don't know what to do right now..